Yes, I was also baptized twice. I had attended indoctrinations and I also went to a Catholic School from primary to university. In my teenage years, I also joined cell groups and attended the church for the protestant Christians.
The search for true religion had become a frustration to me until I stopped seeking but I continue believing. I believe there is someone out there who is very powerful, who is great, who is God. We call him in different names- Bathala, Anito,Anita, Bhagwaan,Buddha, Ek Onkar, Yaweh, Elohim, Guan Yu, Allah- to name a few. We know he is there, he is here...in our hearts. That's right! I have no religion, although I go to church to pray. I've been asking God so many questions that sometimes what is logic can never answer these questions.
I have family and friends who remain devoted to their religion. I appreciate them. They pray, sin, repent, sin, repent, sin, repent. Nothing is wrong with that. Some church goers have this mentality, I know you are familiar with this- "we are right, we are saved, we will go to heaven, outsiders will go to hell, The Creator doesn't love them-way of thinking." Right, I have come across those looks at many points in my life.
Going back to my point---God has no religion. He didn't build religion. He built relationships. He jump started love...unconditional love. Love my friend, is all it is. With love we develop faith, trust and honesty. Not difficult, right? Love! But you see, this is not easy for me. I have always loved with conditions. I have always loved with agenda in mind. I believe, this is going to change.
Lastly, even if you don't agree, God loves me. I can feel it in my bones. I can feel it in my heart. I don't need miracles from him to see that. It is clear to me. And his love has to be returned. I did say I have a WIDE relationship with The Almighty but it's going to be DEEP soon. This is a start, by believing that He loves me and I have all the capacity to love Him back.
